Trying to achieve Calmness

So - how are things 1 week later?  I'm still obsessive.  I'm not freaking out as much.  I had several occurences last week of an extreme desire to drop out when I admitted to someone that I did indeed sign up for the great race.  Monday, I received my email from Ironman to complete the registration process.  I'm done.  I couldn't back out anyway but now I am officially signed up.  I have 6 weeks left to go on my P90x.  I've been swimming twice a week.  No running and no biking.  Life gets in the way, and frankly, my feet hurt.  I am thinking I may give them a rest for a couple of months as I know that training will bring back my issues.  Oh - and Rob put aerobars on my bike.  Perhaps I should try them out so that if I dump it and break something, I can heal up in plenty of time!

I'm not really doing very good on the cutting out the crap part of my plan.  I have reduced my latte consumption to a couple a week instead of daily.  I do often give in when there is a dessert nearby.  I DID grab 3 hershey kisses last night and after eating one - put the other 2 back.  It's progress.  I did do a cleanse last winter, and felt GREAT afterwards.  I kept up the no sugar part of it for a long time.  Perhaps I need to revisit this strategy.

I think I have a 2010 race plan also.  I think I will do the aquathon series in Madison again, although it will likely mean I miss some of Patrick's baseball games (sad to think about summer schedules already).  I will likely register for the Horrible Hilly Hundred bike race in Blue Mounds.  A bunch of us are planning on going up to Door County for the 1/2 Ironman in July already.  I will do the Madison Open Water Swim - it usually is the same weekend as the training plan's peak mileage, so I will do it with the intent of doing the IM bike afterwards.  I will probably do the J-Hawk Earlybird sprint in Whitewater in April.  Perhaps the Capitol View Olympic in June.  I debate whether to do Syttende Mai, but I am not sure doing something so long so early in the season makes sense.  (I just have a new goal to beat as Rob beat my time in May.)  I think I need to practice doing some shorter runs with a heartrate monitor so I can learn how to dial it back a bit.  I tend to go balls to the wall when I run and have not learned a thing about pacing.  Maybe this strategy isn't too bad for Ironman though either. After all, I will eventually hit a wall, might as well have as much under my belt as possible.  Or do I hit the wall quicker?  Things to ponder...